You know this place? The most beautiful place where you can find calmness here. I wish I can be there right now. I thought this holiday can cheer me up like before. But, it just make me sick. Damn. I just hope this December could bring happiness to me. Well, I guess I'm wrong. Everyday I'm just doing the same routine. If this keep continue, one day for sure I will turn into a walking zombie.
That moment when I know this holiday will gonna end soon, I wish by that time, all my problems can solve by themselves. But I know, it will never happen. I just know. I wanna be alone in my own world where everything can bring no harm to my heart and soul. But I know I can't. When I smile, laugh and so on, I know, I'm just faking all of that.
Yes, you can say it's easy to handle but actually, you don't know what I've been through. A girl's heart is a deep ocean of secrets.
Assalamualaikum.