Assalamualaikum. Hello! :) Long time no update maaaaaa. Some words are better left unsaid. Hihi. Btw, prepare yourself this post is gonna be a looonggggg one!
Aku tak sangka semua ni terjadi. Setiap kali cuti sekolah, setiap kali tulah aku terluka, kecewa. Well maybe school holidays memang masa untuk kita semua gain more bad memories huh? God's test, for us.
My problems were literally not that kind of problems yang everyone used to face. Like those 'love' problems. Heartbreak, jealousy and all. I dont really have that kind of problems. Well maybe i do experience them a little. Tapi aku bukan jenis yang ambik port pasal hal tu. Kalau bab boyfriend or crush aku takkan sekali kali melebih lebih. Dia bukan suami aku yang aku perlu jaga. Yang aku perlu risau. Yang aku perlu tahu dengan siapa dia berkawan, bermesra. Yang aku perlu taat sebab syurga aku terletak di bawah tapak kaki dia. Cos one day akan ada orang lebih layak untuk aku hormat lebih dari mereka semua ni. Ops terlebih.
Anyway my type of problems is that type which hurts the most. Of course, for sure tak ada kaitan langsung dengan kaum Adam((yang still teenagers)) lah. Sakitnya kat pangkal hati, tak terkata. Sebab apa yang kita boleh buat cuma dengar dengan telinga, lihat dengan mata dan menangis tanpa suara, tanpa air mata. Tangisan tanpa titisan. Sebab kita tak ada hak nak halang, tak ada hak nak marah. Tak ada hak nak balas balik. Have you ever face this kind of situation before? That feeling which you cant describe. Kalau korang rasa apa yang aku rasa sekarang korang akan nangis non stop. Tapi bukan aku. Aku dah habis air mata. Nuff said.
Okay to be honest well i once pernah sedih sangat((crush thingy ofc)) and i feel like crying my heart out but then i realized its not worth it. So i have a lil advice for all of you, when you're thinking about your crush or ex boyfriend or even boyfriend try not to ever cry. He'll leave you neglected. One day bila kita teringat balik, you'll be like, "kenapa aku nangis?" believe me. Cos heartache doesnt last forever.
So, calm yourself. Close your eyes, sometimes it helps. Or be braver and leave him! How are you going to make it work when it hurts? Dont let him close enough to hurt you, again. Or maybe the least you can do is ask. Ask him what actually happens! Curiosity kills, you know.
Post ni datang dari hati. Actually i was typing about what happened to myself but then i thought, do i need to tell the world what was happening to me? Do i need to tell the world what were my problems? So i came up with this post instead of telling you all my bad bad memories. And its kinda macam buka pekung sendiri kan? Tak elok.
Reading this post again do make me feels awkward. Well who cares tho?
Some problems are meant to teach us what life is. The meaning of life. Life is even beautiful with the presence of problems, cos thats the time we really appreciate all the sweet moments in our life.
And problems can also okay i should really stop now. Its kinda annoying.
And maybe, just maybe we can all stop doing things out of frustration.
Adios! Assalamualaikum.
:)